aqua paradise

2010-09-05T18:18:00.000-07:00

Official graduate this September as I have been doing nothing since May. Interviews maybe good but it makes me fall from the top all the way to the bottom. They give me hope, give me good feed backs and in the end Im still here, they did not hired me only making me like a fool, helping them to do advertisements here and there. Uncle ask me not to be demoralize however I'm getting to lose hope, I pray for a better and stable life but things isn't showing up, is it because I am not sincere enough or they just isn't looking at me. They predicted and give me good blessing for my career, but still non of the good stuff appears. Day by Day pass, it makes me feel that I'm super useless, why is it so difficult to get into this industry, or I want to was to start from the beginning and learn from there den wasting all the time staying at hm doing nth. Or design really not my cup of tea? It is really a big question mark, a question til now isn't being revealed. I just need a little bit of light, a light to show me or lead me to the correct place, why is it so difficult. The more I feel upset and questioning here and there, it makes me feel even more useless, why I'm I not having networks for me to get there. My fate is to sit down and wait is that so? I suppose it is.

2010-08-11T02:58:00.001-07:00

I learn to keep my mouth shut, whatever that happened just remain silent, the more you make your stand the more you make mistake. Why get myself into unnecessary trouble.having to work in a small little booth, yet there are so many eyes looking at you, complain here and there, everything just not in line. I told myself that I have to be positive not to be over react in any ways but still things still causes me to get a little moody. How long or will I ever be in the position where I have people working under me, I do not have to look at any other people face, what I do is all up to me. Isit possible? I doubt so. At this critical age, most or I can say some of the people had already having a stable job which bring them a promotion or even better opportunity for building up their asset. And for me what I can do is wait, wait and wait...

I dont wanna b a robot, a puppet nor even a dog. I WANT TO BE MYSELF!!

chant away my anger, chant away my hatred n also my negative mindset...

2010-08-10T02:44:00.000-07:00

As we grown up, life tend to change, regardless good nor bad, we still have to live on. All we can do is to be super positive to whatever that comes to us. For now, all I wanna have was to get myself a stable income, which enable me to go for my oversea trip, last but not least my goal with my dear emi that we will go for our degree in Lasalle in 2 yrs time. But it had to depend whether or not we are already a full timer in the market :) Let's not think about it now, and pray hard that the director would hired me on September.

Right now, I have to get myself stick at downtown for the lucky draw job for a mth. Yesterday was my day 1, people all are enjoying their national day holiday whereas I am here to work, what to do I have to earn money for my allowance, so I shall not grumble. Weather this few days is killing me, the sun seem to be doing his job almost everyday, & at the same time giving out a temperature of roughly 30 Degree Celsius of heats.I simply hope is rains whenever I work, if not day after day I would be roasted like BBQ human meat. And worse thing is I'm already very tan.

Let time pass fast.......12 more days.

2010-06-29T17:27:00.000-07:00

After working at Blic Ice Cream shop I realised, there's a lot of different types of funny people living in this world. Hard to describe how this people actually are but what I can say is they are just not normal. And one more thing I noticed in the shop is that, couples who came into the shop, most of the male they will order their shared alone and when come to the payment part, instead of being a gentleman taking out their wallet to pay, they will just stand there and wait for the female to pay for them. OMG!!! Super hard to believe . I cannot imagine if my bf is this sort of guy that would want me to pay.. What is going on to people living in this generation? What is the problems that causes them to changed? During my parents period, hardly you will see this kind of scene would be put up..hmm... I'm so curious about this. What I can say to convince myself is that, maybe women now are more capable than men, they are earning more than a men do :p ( which is a happy things because Female are successful now.) I guess if any male who had seen this statement, I bet they will fight back with a lot of disagreement however I still have to let them know, it will be true if you guys dont wanna buck up !!

back to work... :)

A New Chapter.

2010-06-12T22:07:00.000-07:00

I am going to get myself out of the comfort zone, get started with the working life that I am suppose to be in!!

2009-01-10T22:36:00.000-08:00

TIRED!!!

CAN I GET MYSELF OUT OF THE CIRCLE???

2008-12-16T05:43:00.000-08:00

I'm having a fever and I only realize it when I finished my work. I called him before I go home but he did not answer, so went home to rest and I found that I had a miss call. Reply him his call and the same no answer but later I receive a msg he told me he went massage. Upon reading the msg it really make me feel uncomfortable, I dunno why, and worse is I break one of the glass while walking to the kitchen, does it trying to show a bad sign to me, I really dunno. I hate this feeling once again, I'm getting to regret , or can I say I'm not fit to have get into a relationship. I just need a little attention, a little care and concern but now all this are no longer being shown. You are tired I understand, you have alot of works to do I also understand, I choose not to give you problem, hardly sent you any msg nor call you alr. In the past 2 mths you used to called me, nv fail to be there for me showing ur care and concern however everything changed. NOT THE SAME! I dunno I'm being over or not but I just wanna speak up the feeling in me. Alot of pple told me u r a nice guy, you are this and that, I agreed but now I have no answer. Everything I do, you know, but everything you do I know nth. Since that is the case I cant control you and you cant control me, I will nv going to say every single things that happen , I will just keep quiet. If you dont trust me at all den I really cannot do anything. Caused I dunno have to trust you also.=(

2008-12-14T21:22:00.001-08:00

Wasn't free to updated as I'm currently back to my old job. Everything is as usual and I really do miss this group of people=)
Nth is happening in my working enviroment but in my relationship.
I decided to give myself a chance to treasure , however I just find myself being very sensitive and insecure , I did not know why I'm feeling this way but I just do.
I see him in front of me, but I just feel like we belong to a 2 different world, we are like stranger, I do love you as before but I just feel that ur feeling for me is just not as strong as the past.
I know I'm really selfish not to put myself in your shoe, so now I'm letting you to do wadever things you wanted and not disturbing you nor even tag u any msg. I think this is the best way for you to focus in your work & your hobby. =))
and now I'm on my own to do things I liked ba. I have nth to say le.
One thing I hoped now was not to dream of the same old nightmare again =((

2008-12-04T09:44:00.000-08:00

okay let me refresh some of my memories back, what I have been doing.

Firstly after all the tears and all the shitty problems that happen, I finally came to a final decision that was letting everything go. I dont wish to keep it anymore and bring myself to further heart pain! Is not worth it, no point under someone control! This is not called LOVE! Is just that he wanted me and saying that he love me, I believe you in the past few mths but now I dont think so, I admit I cant bear to leave you but I know one day we will still brk up, there's lots of problem in between us which is beyond our control. This is wad I have to say.

Secondly, Happy birthday to my darling emi on dec 2. I really have a great time with you, I wont leave you alone le=)).hees. Oh ya ! sorry ger I din get ur anything for ur bdae will replace u a late present. I'm sorry . Hopefully ger you will feel better now le.

Thirdly, I finally get to meet bomber and darling after so long. I love the night hanging at the bak kuh teh shop, I love the feeling on the bike.hees. I want another outing on bike !!! haha...

Lastly, for me now I have to focus on myself more, no longer put others before me, and I have to put studies in front of all the things, work will came next =)) When I get my pay I want a TRIP!!!! I really want !!! and soon after that I'm going for an DSLR ya=) hees.

K la.got to stop here le. working tomorrow =) nites

2008-11-19T07:13:00.000-08:00

have not been updating my blog for very long alr so now I'm updating it=) . Finally semester 1 is done everything is fine now, managed to pull though the whole assignment week. Now waiting for my jobs to come and enjoy my lovely christmas with frens & relatives. I got to earn more cash for my expenses.hmmm... having a tuff time now, everything need money, I couldn't enjoy without money most of the day i'm staying at homw doing homechores. I dun like the feeling of staying at home, I do enjoy working, maybe i'm getting to become a workaholic little girl. Decided to get a board to paint at home 2ml=)) finally have the time to do something I like ya. & i'm thinking what i should do for my little special girl on the special day at dec =)) got to think hard now. nth much to updated le=)) stop here for today.

2008-07-30T00:45:00.000-07:00

currently alone at the counter, nothing much to do so decided to updated my blog.

Just went to HR office to get our letter mail, then headed to mdm office to chit chat with her, she was so busy with her work so me and jess can only sit there and look at what she's doing. Later, mdm's boss came in to look for her and we chit chat together. Can't remember what we have say to come into transfering conversation, but I'm so happy with wad he say, that is he could transfer me and jess to his dept to work under him but jess told him I'm starting school soon so he like " oh....is a waste den I cant transfer you here alr." I was so suprized that I'm able to get into human resource side, but now the chance is goned as I'm going back to school=((
So now the situation I'm havng was, should I continued my studies or continued working in another dept. Kind of stress up now, I'm so afraid that if i lose this chance, there wont be a better one appearing again. As everyone know NTUC is a big company like we say " tie fan wan", but still I cant make up any decision.

Is confusing nw.......

2008-07-17T01:45:00.000-07:00

I'm not a workaholic person, I do wanna enjoy life like normal young teens do, I do wanna go for nightlife if I really can, I do wanna go out enjoying myself, shopping around with friends like I wanted most , however I can't.
I'm not being brought up this way! I'm not being taught to enjoy without hardwork! I'm always being controlled but I have no regrets, all this years I have been working hard for more allowance just becos I don wanna be poor, just becos I wan to reduced the debts in my family.
& Friends around me always say that I don't give myself a break, whenever there's holidaes or any weekend available, I will go work den hanging round with them, I know my rejection may cause upset to my frens but I cant do anything to it. Anyway I'm not as rich as u think.

But If I'm not working and money is coming into my pocket everyday, i dont mind ending my job. If this is realistic enough. But I know it will nv happened, I know myself well that if I stop working I won't be able to fill my tummy, if i'm not working, many things cannot be work out. That's why. Recently, I have been looking for full time job that provided sponsoring in studies and many things more, I even have this tot of quitting lasalle and go for part time studies, lots of things for me to think about. I try to stay clam as much as possible, and not telling any of my friends what I have been doing is becos this kind of personal problem no one can helped out and even if you tell them you are facing with this kind of problems, they cant do anything, why? different families have their own difficulties, not everyone faced the same situation as you, so some may not understand.

I'm sorry if I left out some of my friends whenever they need me around, I just couldn't stop wad I'm doing. Work is impt to me. I'm sorry.....

thank dad for your love and concern. thanks a million. with Love.

私がいかに望むか私は私の方法で行ってもいい

2008-07-11T12:10:00.000-07:00

Everyone I'm back to blog again...

This few days having lots of work to do, due to my last mth working, I got to clear up alot of old stuff which I had left over during the start of my work. So slowly clearing up all the ID stuff, I even wrote notes for the new staff that will be taking over me, haha..really nth to do ya..

Anyway I'm very satisfied with my life now, I'm happy with what I have, I kinda fall in love with my job after so much conflict, after a big fight, my am and me got more close as in the way we talk, we even discuss things and solve things together now. He getting to be brave le. haha. happy enough now!!!

I love all my friends at work, all my collage that went though all the hardwork with me, I really love them all. They taught me things that I never had been taught before, they show me what a real society are. Especially dad, thanks for teaching me so much, I love ya soso much...haha...thanks for being so nice to me =)) I'm going to miss my Decard dept all pals , events and merchandise loves, nebo buddy and my ex boss adeline.
There's so much of pple whom I cant mentioned it all, what I can say was I miss quebec & Ntuc pple.
I promised once I finished my education I will be going back if there's still a valid position.
Hopefully daddy hired me for his event and I could see them all again.=))

lalala~ more chalet session before going back to school.
anyway I do misses my lasalle school mate, wondering if they are doing fine, hopefully I'm being miss by them ya=PpP

counting down for her bdae. wondering wad i should get for her ..hmm...

2008-06-28T00:41:00.000-07:00

IS 3.42PM...THE WEATHER IS F********HOT CAN!! I couldn't stand it anym0re, is like BBQ human meat . I'm melting alr . How I wish lao pa could get me cooling stuff to eat=pPp getting more and more overboard towards him.haha. OH YA! worse is our office air con spoil !!!!arghs!!!! I'm getting tired with the nonsense my AM have given me, he is so very disgusting la, I promised to bear with it and be a good girl for another one month after I had leave I will make sure he died until very ugly. U wan malay young ger to work for you rite, now u have one, we shall see how long she can stay. My bet for her to stay until was 1 mth 1 week, jessie da jie was 1 mth few days, Juju one was 2 mth, we shall see if any of us won not=))

I have never come across with this kind of "responsible" AM, that is so unbrave, wadever he do he scared this and that, love to push the blame to others where the fault belong to him. And if he is scared of you he would dare to make a single sound even though you dont follow "HIS RULE", as for me I'm the youngest among all, he always find fault with me , I trying to be patient with him, I still smile as he was scolding me, he sound like he wanted me to leave but he just being lamed to say wad hmmm...."meimei, I find that pple working here all pamper you alot, isit becos pple pamer u that's why u aways dont listen to wadever I say?" stupid rite. Is not everyone pamper me and i end up like that is just that no one in this dept wanted to listen to your nonsense!the things u mostly order us to do is always extra work, if not it will always caused us into unessasry trouble. NOw DO YOU understand!! so u jolly wll stop ur nonsense if not ur position one day would be replaced.
Hopefully when terry come back, you will stop targetting me for nth!!!!!arghs...

2008-06-26T00:34:00.000-07:00

i'm getting sick of living, I dont enjoyed in whatever I am in now, so what if I had enter a design school which fulfil my interest, does it mean anything? NO! Others could study what they want ya , others can get whatever things without any hardwork, others get lead a very good and wealthy life which I have not been into, life just simply full of shit!!. I have enough of stress regardless of what I have went though,and now the stress is going up even more. Can I take a break and enjoy life with everything provided? NAH!!! is impossible. Is just a stupid dreams. Holiday?! Pple could do whatever things they want unlike me I have the work/worry for my school fees,school material and all. Sometime I would like to use the off day to draw,paint and do things I like but is impossible, why? I am too tired to do all this due to 365 days working. Working do spoil my day as I gt to serve all those unreasonable customers. I know they were rich, so what! does it mean everyone got to listen to your order. arghs. forget it. I hate to be poor. I dont wanna be poor ! CAN I? .............

2008-06-16T13:55:00.000-07:00

Saturday:
went dinner with derrick at feifei wandan noodles, was enjoying myself alot during the trip there, have alot of conversation in the car, in the end he get "piss" by my words.haha.Realy love hanging out with him. thank sir for the trip.

Yesterday:
end work at 5.30pm, den headed to sembawang to meet up my sister. When reaching sembawang, I was thinking at the someone and when i lift up my head he was right infront of me, I didn't went forward but just msg him that I saw him and he actually called me back. He sounded quite shock and happy and I'm super duper HAPPY to see him after months and months I didn't get to contact him, as I tot he changes his number alr. But is gd that the contact is still the same ya. I get very upset by his msg later on, and I find is very weird, maybe is his new wife that msg me for him ba. What's over is over no point for me to look behind, like what HM says, I should look forward and I promised him that I would changed as I really do. thank HM for bringing my confidence back. *_*
Later on headed to woodland to look for daddy as it is Father day, tot of treating hima big feast but too bad he was not at woodland when we reach there. So went for a little shopping and got myself a bag. Whole day was moody , but managed to overcome it.
Oh ya! I got really piss off by my AM this time he is so very disgusting until i cant stand it anymore, I'm going to tell sir once I see him. arghs.....

Today:
wake up with my eye swollen for don't know what reason, waiting for my sister to come home before going out. was watching this movie called "The Reaping" right now, the show is so f******* eerie but overall is a good show, is a story between god and evil. I don't know about bibble stuff so some part of the story I not quite understand.

2008-06-14T04:17:00.000-07:00

I have nth to do so I'm blogging right now, just finished reading all kind of ghost stories though the net, some are kind of boring, some are sad and some are really scary. hmmm....at the same ti me was wondering should i dye my hair not, so sian i dunno wad to do. Early evening still have to face those nasty customer, asking all kind of stupid question, and later still complain us for being rude to them. So unreasonable. Oh ya. today I had this very first encountered of my customer being a deaf person, I found them very friendly, and it was also my first time using writing form to reply their qns and answer, I love serving them, at least they are not so f******nasty one. =))) okay I gt the stop here le . cos i dunno wad to write .hees.

2008-06-13T22:55:00.000-07:00

having to be very sick, I didn't go to work, so have been rotting at home. Nth to do so I decided to draw ming han's portrait, just have that image done not long ago.Finally can pass him his bdae present le. haha. NO more nagging from him =P. I'm trying to get that image scan in but the pencil line too light alr. Actually wanna do painting maybe later i'm doing it. I'm super duper bored. Got to practise my drawing techique le. Hopefully i will get well soon. =))) stop here le.updated again 2ml i suppose=))

2008-06-12T08:42:00.000-07:00

I'm sick and I still goes to work as usual, I'm so tired. I really dont feel like working can, but wad can i do. I just need someone to pamper me sometime, I really do, but never will I get that someone.
I'm getting real tired.....

I misses ..................................

2008-06-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

Went to watch "KUNG FU PANDA" yesterdae, is so very interesting, I love all the characters especially the panda. From the start of the show you will start laughing as you cannot believed that a huge panda , his daddy is actually a duck that sell NOODLES.haha. I shall not proceed further, if you wanna know the whole funny story you got to really watch it, is worth watching unless you are those kind of people who don't watch animation.

TODAY

I was sick and is like FINALLY, have been working for 1 month 11 days in the department, it really make me can't stand it anymore, due to the weird weather at last I fall. But getting sick is not a great thing like we usually thought of, like what we always say take MC then we shall not work for that day. Ya it may be right that we don't have to work due to the mc given but the worse thing was they got to deduct our pay for like nothing. We work so hard for the company but this is what they provided their staff, what a good' company I'm working for.

I have to force myself to work tomorrow, hopefully wished that I can get better.

On my way home today,memories flashed to the day where I'm sick and being taken care by someone, how I wish there is a someone there for me to take care of me however is no where to be seen, I have to carry my own sick body home by dragging myself up the bus. I really hated today really hated. =(((

2008-06-04T04:15:00.000-07:00

the boreness is killing me! I'm having a big headache now and i'm still working, everyone is busy with their work and i think i'm the only one here are more free . I'm kinda sick and tired of working life how I wish someone won't be here to acc me though the days. I dunno why memories until now still here, I think is most probably you mean so much to me in the past ba. Now, if i still met you, I wont feel any single pain nor anything .I'm proud to say that. =))) tired can......arghs!!!!~!!

2008-05-27T03:35:00.001-07:00

I'm working now but due to my boredness, I decided to blog =)

I'm so happy I just brought myself a green korean dress in ebay. This was my first time doing online shopping , getting addicted to it le, die liao la. haha. But the shirt & dresses are all so beautiful and unique that s'pore hardly have .hees. so no regret at all ya.
Going to do more online shoping after my pay is here.hees.

2008-05-26T19:03:00.000-07:00

Finally found a song for my blog. Is called "Just one last dance"-by sarah conner .

so nice!!! but is sound kinda sad ya.

Just one last dance....oh baby...just one last dance

We meet in the night in the Spanish cafe
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
Tomorrow will come an it's time to realize
Our love has finished forever

How I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
How I wish we make it through

[Chorus:]
Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time
Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
But I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love

There's no way to come with you
It's the only way to do

[Chorus 3x (until fade)]

Just one last dance, just one more chance, just one last dance

Is so meaningful=)))

2008-05-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

after a long busy day, I have decided to blog about my daily life.

normal, went working as usual.

hmm... raining heavily today so got myself a little wet as I brought along my big umbrella. Rushing to work and managed to get to work at 12pm.

Everything the same doing it step by step,

and was being brain wash by my manager, got lots of stuff to remember and lots of stuff to do. kinda stress up but no choice is my part to do so.

While doing my work, was busy messaging him, luckily he msg me keeping me occupied the whole day. thanks peeps*

He really make my day when I get scolded and get piss with HER! I saw one of his msg and I actually LOL in front of my manager *opps

haha. Managed to escape though. as manager did not ask much.

There is too much things to mention about that LADY..

went lunch wif emi darling, hearing her complaining about her job and later she was being scolded by that fat ass!! arghs. Cannot stand that fat ass la, the real true is nobody like him. poor girl. will help you out de promise=))

OH YA! I'm watching this show from SCV is called "PIMP MY RIDE" , it is from MTV channel 51, If you loves design you will love this show.

The things they design was those screw up/ugliest car ever, they can changed the whole entire car according to ur interest or in their own way. Those cars that they have design was limited ad, only one in the whole world.

You will never thought of how creative they are or how crazy they can be to change the car into a high technology transport. I don't know how to describe how great this show is so people watch it urself and you will never REGRET!

TIME: 11pm(all weekdays)

2008-05-03T02:51:00.000-07:00

updated my blog as I worked =)) hees.
Saw Miss norani just now, and she remembered me lah, I'm so happy to see her here. I really miss her lots.
I gt myself quite a few union card members...hmmm...not bad still.
Learn alot of stuff today.
And I saw him again=/
Sometime it really spoil my day but I can't do anything but walked away.
Having a gd chat wif valerie and bro and I find out new stuff again. But it no longer concern me.
I am now in the middle of higher social working life, busy earning money, planning about my career and future, so there's nth more to care about for those pple.
In the longer run we will all b in a different pathway heading towards a better life.=)) 20 MINS i'M OFF =) YEAH!

2008-05-02T05:14:00.000-07:00

Start work. Doing fine. Friends & Boss are very GD!

Waiting for my pass to cum so that I can do the data entry,

got to memorize everything for the membership stuff.

Went for my BTT trial test, I didn't study and I actually got 70% la, but for the com system I still consider as fail as in not 85% . Is like wad the?? forget it as long as I think can jiu hao le.

Anyway anyone wanna watch dance of the dragon ? pls called me =) I wanna watch alot of show so I'm looking for company =)) hees.

nth to updated. update again 2ml i think

2008-04-29T18:32:00.000-07:00

Interview in the afternoon, everything went smoothly, have been accepted alr, the boss was not that bad, she is not wad I have been told about. Was told to learn everything in 10 days, due to the family event held on 11th may. hmm. kinda stress ya cos I'm not in account stuff.

Later on, went to meet Emi darling at tampines mrt platform, den headed to town for seong hoong's cap. First location was far east, we managed to get the cap there also, emi darling went shopping after that, she brought herself a nice necklace frm korea, make me so envy la, I forget to bring my cash along yesterdae. arghs. nvm=)

Second location, cinileisure, went koba to eat den to heeren, and lastly we went back to cinileisure for movie, emi wanna watch the Hazel and Gretel again. She want pple to acc her to watch this show, as I haven watched so she ask me along. Thanks emi darling for the treats.

The show was kinda confusing for some of the scenes, wad I hated most was the forest scenes, cos it makes my head spinning, worse is no matter how the main character try to leave the place, it appear to be like a mazed. Overall the show was not bad, story line is good and the ending of the show was touching . However it is a very saddening show.

I cannot imagine there's this kinda places where they ill treated the children so badly la, the " father" can even raped little ger, and he even starve the children to dead. so poor thing. when u see this scene you will surely be angry and how you wish that that old man was dead .

If you wanted to know how and wad happen next, you should catch the movie is good with no regret=).

Movie end-ed, went to bugis mrt platform to meet up wif jen and hui ru.

nth much le.

Home sweet home=)

2008-04-27T03:56:00.000-07:00

after a long day of working (projects), the holiday had finally started, I'm so happy but at the same time tired cos got to find new job to work. hmmm...got to earn more money =) den can go oversea with darling la. KOrea !! haha. Have been looking for art tutor job, hope that person reply me, sent my resume to those of company and now I' waiting for them to reply. Kinda boring this days..hais. updated again.

2008-04-21T03:14:00.000-07:00

Rushing my work now, got to completed everything by friday.hais.

so tired...arghs.

p.s:

To my friends,

friendship will never end between me and you,

regardless of who you are.

I love having you guys in my life,

sharing the good and bad things that happened.

I knew sometime I make noises that causes ur ears to get irritated,

I'm pretty sorry, cos I din know this character of mine would makes pple disliked.

Now that I have know, I wont do it again,

I'm not a very sensitive person,

If u have know me long,

I'm always a happy go lucky girl.

I just love to have fun & joke around with frens,

I always tend to remember every single words my frens says in mind,

even though is like sometime small.

Until now I still remembered wad we have say while we were together,

I'm looking forward for the day to come,

working together, enjoy together and stuff.=)

I admit I will get upset to some words being spoken ,

but I will never ever tot of breaking up friendship.

Friend are forever to me,

I wont even think of it.

Is just that I want my frens to be happy wif wad they wanted.

If I sounded like our frenship are gonna be gone,

I'm sorry, I'm just not good at expressing my feeling though words ba.

But for now, no matter if we were still frens or not,

I just hope VS2T student all make it to another level ya.

hope to see you guys soon alright =))

sign off

gdnite*

2008-04-19T01:14:00.000-07:00

kaku fat version =)) haha

our madness*

my Lovely snack=))

went darling house to help her on her work, but we tend to slack a little =)). Acc darling to hougang to take her photography den to vivocity for seong hoong's present.Upon walking to vivo, there's this guy that say he was from UAN came stoping me and darling becos his manager saw me and emi darling den she wanted our number , normally pple will get shock rite, why this guy stop us, den he keep on toking non stop, and he even say I looks so blur la, like dunno wad happen. Obviously la I nv came across this kind of things b4 lei, luckily darling was there to help, saying she's alr one of the UAN pple, so that guy din say much,so I just pass him my no.s and he went rushing off.

Went daiso for darling sushi stuff den brought 2 canvas board for some painting. I also brought a very cute snack, La Bi Xiao Xin de la, so cute.. all we know was the snack mostly appear in cartoon but i din know it actually exist in real life =)) It taste so nice too.

later, went starbuck to slack, and we had our photo session as usual..haha.. many pic to upload so i just choose a few to upload=)

I met new fren angeline, she is a very nice ger lah, haha, love the way she talk, so funny also. haha, I kinda like her too. More outting together ya. hees.Loves

2008-04-18T09:54:00.000-07:00

Just had my breakfast with my family at 802, while eating happily there's this loud BANG and there's this black honda car went banging the traffic light pole, the impart was too big that the traffic light came down. hmmm. luckily onli the driver is in the car, if he so happen to have a wife beside him, i think the ger will confirm die straight. But the driver luckily nth happen to him. so overall still haia hao =) but the scene of the accident causes a big crowd of uncle and aunt dunno they stand there for wad, some even take pictures loh...hmmm...bo liao.

anyway this was my first time seeing accident happening in front of me.the feeling is so scary, my heart beat so fast la.also dunno why =/

after looking at blog, I realised that I'm actually not a fren to you. I actually have tot of celebrating bdae wif you but i realised that this is not wad you wanted. maybe i'm not the fren you wanted ba. I will not disturb your days anymore.

2008-04-17T10:08:00.000-07:00

neoprint session =))

I stick eileen when she is so focus on her "puzzled"..haha..

carrot cake =)) so nice. thanx to cat & eileen

bdae gal look so surprised after seeing the cake.

The start of blowing candle.

snapshot eileen* cos I'm so bored la=PpP

Bdae cake-looks normal,but taste wonderful.

went to sch for janice's bdae celebration, went hongkong cafe to have our dinner, the food there is nice, forget to take the pic down le, cos everyone is kinda hungry.
we order lots of food and the total bill is like 90+ la, so can imagine how much we eat.
six of us( adeline,eileen,cat,jingling,me and janice) went neoprint after that is like so funny la, haha. went we took the neoprint, we all very gan jiong, we keep on changing places from the above neoprint you can see ba, although is abit blur ya. =pPp.
after the photo session, went mrt staircase there to chill, we toking about lots of stuff and was like luffing and joking all the way, jing ling's gf is funny.haha. is like second eileen. cute loh.
oh ya! saw yi xin today, hmmm..den we also msg one another and i realised he is going to ns soon lo, is like everyone is heading to ns alr. that's fast.
thanx yx for cheering me wor=)

I suddenly feel so motivated. hmmm.. Batt gone up to 100%.hees..

I love you gers. Really have a great time ya !
Let's Work hard ya! VS2T the best hor =PpP

Lastly, Emi darling thanks for being there for me too =)) (hug and kisses)

2008-04-16T22:29:00.000-07:00

she's my sweety pie=)

darling with her SLR camera*

our madness=))

(bighead,thicklip,longchin)

crazyness* -darling sharp teeth-----V

animated us =)) look so cartoon hor

Went emi darling house to do our work together, was quite happy cos finally I get to see her you see. Headed to darling house at 1.30pm, and the weather is so so hot can.omg! was like sweating lah, worse it I walk to the wrong staircase to darling house but later I managed to get myself to the right place.haha. Rest awhile and started to do our work, both of us are like so focus until darling got bored and she keep on walking in and out the room la so funny. she like cong cong like that cannot sit straight de, awhile more she will be laying on the bed. ahaha. cute little ger. I was sort of piss off wif my mac den I decided not to do my work and we girl started to talk about guy. emi show me her guy, he is kinda cute, emi miss him like crazy lo, U cant imagine how crazy she was talking about the seong hoong la. haha. Anyway he is a korea. Lucky little ger got herself a better bf this time. No more .........le =)

Have our girls talk until we decided to leave the house to get my texture paper at simei. sorry emi mummy, I didn't know you cook my dinner, next time i will eat up the nice food you cooked de.

We also meet up with Jen dear there. Waited for her and went to their"laodifang" to eat their favourite curry rice. Jen dear was so hungry la. haha.

Order our food and as usual girl talk, but this time was a different one, even more interesting, during our conversation, emi darling was trying to get the hand of korean language at the same time she teaches Jen dear, it sounded so funny but they are speaking it quite well.

I hoped emi darling and Jen dear got the happiness they want. Better treat them well ar "boyfriends"

Went starbuck to slack, and we started playing my mac cam, haha.. we took quite a few pictures, looks so funny !! haha. but we do have lots of fun and we were like luffing all the way la. haha. ( look at the above image you will know =))

this was only part of it out of 80 images we had =XX

2ml meeting my darlings.lalalas~

FEELINGS...

2008-04-13T02:30:00.000-07:00

We used to be a loving couple holding hand walking happily on the street,

the next moment we became a stranger, although we came passing by one another,

there wouldn't be any conversation between us but only an exchange of sight.

As days go by you met up with a new girl,

the feeling you had for me had vanished in the air without no one noticing.

The happiness we went though is all being blown away by the wind,

nope of the memories you could remember and all you had was her.

The memories of yours however still being kept in my head,

no matter how hard I have tried to push away,

your face had never been erased.

I forced myself to accept this facts that you were gone,

and as months go by,

the imagine of your face still appeared,

but this time I could smile as i think of the thing we had been though.

No tears being shed for you,

Only laughter I can say.

I knew some part of you are true,

but what I could was 'a leopard never changed it spots'

no matter how true you gonna be,

the ending will always be the same.

Although i still think of you but,

I'm no longer falling for you.

Good bye to my old feeling~

the new one have just began=)))

2008-04-12T10:46:00.000-07:00

Let me brief though wad special program I had during the days where i din blog:

-School holiday

-celebrating Damian's darling bdae

-Kok onn's bdae chalet

- PROJECTS!!

- Interview VE

-SHOPPING !!!

nth much lah, just briefly say wad had happen during this few weeks. I can only remember this much =))

2008-03-11T23:43:00.001-07:00

Haven been blogging cos i'm sort of lazy and busy with all the works given by teachers !!! arghs.. Slept @ 4.30 yesterdae to do my drawing work and worse it the next morning i overslept and i realise that i'm not feeling well can. OMG! sorry emi darling cant meet u up. hais. Oh ya! last night was toking to merilynn dear on the fone and sophia too, they are like enjoying themselve in the "room" la. haha. i bet they din sleep early like me too =)). And we even 3G one another lo, so funny can, I managed to see the work they have done, quite impressed la, sophia's painting is nice and merilynn too . So envy cos i din get to completed all and mine is like so ugly la.hais. Wadever lah i'm so tired. I cant even bothered alr. as long everything id doned i'm very happy le =)

nth much to updated i got to go do my work le .stop here first=)

2008-02-28T10:41:00.000-08:00

Busy Busy Busy...
Was praying grandfather todae early in the morning.
Den started doing my 2d works, still processing....
And later doing my essay!!!
Spend all my afternoon research on the topic, dun reali know wad to do but just try my best.
Just finish my essay half way though, still got 247 words to go to 1000.arghs! head pain.
Was talking to Merilynn and i realise we all din really get clear of the topic.sian can.
was complaining to her about the essay la!!!!ah!!!!
Going to continue my essay le. stop here le...

2008-02-27T22:31:00.000-08:00

Outing wif merilynn today!! den same again,we went for good food!! dim sum for us ya. haha. Order lots of different food, one of the cutest food I ever hear was called"walawala" porridge.haha. The food sound cute but taste bad so we din reali finish it. Oh ya! merilynn ger actually saw that aunt of the dim sum shop eating the left over food left by the customer and she actually stare at her, den the aunt like very ps, faster clean the table and left.haha.. Ger just cant stand seeing pple like that, she felt disgusted but wad to do we cant stop her also=) Later,we have no where to go after that so we went "slippers" hunting=)) The location we heading to was vivocity, tot eileen's bro was working but din see him so we assume that his bro was working at some other branches ba. Headed to urban male for slipper din get to find mine .sadded. merilynn ger also din get to find her size, so she just ask the sales person to reserve one for her. and To our surprise we actually saw this shop having macbook sales onli for this week so we went in lo, haha. I'm so happy cos this was the first shop i came to that can buy macbook using instalment, so I have decided to get the macbk pro this sat. Now got to work extra to earn my money le. No more spending. Merilynn brought her mac too, so she let the sales person check for her, the sales person at vivo did spotted the laptop problem so we went cinileisure to repair her laptop, I hated the service there can so bad wan.arghs!! Merilynn ger also very piss off can, next time dun cum this shop repair liao la so sucky de la.
Went heeran for more slipper hunting, but we din get to see any slipper in the new urban male there, went fourskin and ger actually found her slippers!! haha. she so cute la when she choosing the slipper, haha. should have take down her pic=XX she brought 2 pair and she was so excited la,finally get wad she want le. After that went to punks star,the shop where i get my doggy t shirt de, ger brought a little cute ger t shirt, that shirt reali suit her. hees.
Ended shopping, and headed home, as ger going to club tonight too.
nth much lo. I love outting with Merilynn can!! ahaha. more outting ya. got to acc her watch the 'leap years' too =)))

2008-02-24T01:36:00.000-08:00

Have not been blogging this days, because i'm so lazy,tired and busy can.haha.there's alot of things happening but i'm so lazy to blog it so I will only be focusing about today ba=)
Went ikeas just now to get my stuff wif mummy and sis(s) and have my whole living room being clean up and now i have another small corner for my artworks.haha.so happy. My laptop is also fix,thinking of getting new one but dunno is it worth or not.
And I happened to read one of my junior's blog from sec sch, see that she is going to study in thailand university. I sort of envy her, she is younger than me by 2 year and she can travel to oversea and study alr, she even went china to work to gains experience, and noe more "BIG PPLE" so that in future she can open her own textile and leather shop.The school she went to was full of rich and famous business pple, and she hope to get more connection. But for me I'm studying in an art school however I still think she is more successful den me, she dun have to go wad we call art sch to fulfill her dream,she can actually have the base before me. She have all the connections and she can make her wish cum true but to me compare to her I'm like nth. Make me feel so useless out of the sudden. when will this days be happening to me, I think it wont ba, cos I will nv be able to be like her can.hais. she is pretty too la. arghs! now i admit pretty lady have better life can most of it la. But mine life is just nth ba. =((

2008-02-07T10:37:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!LOves...
todae was the first day of CNY, although is new year but i dun really have the new year mood at all, dunno why lo, but still alright lah, cos i went the watch AH LONG PTE LTD!! The show is dam funny lah I really suggest everyone who have not watch the show go watch!!, cos you will nv regret can, the show is like from the start you can luff untill the end of the show.Luff die me can. The show is cute seriously, it dun looks like those reali gangster kind of show but in the other hand it is actually showing another funny side of a totally change gang!! They change the gang rule until so special, nv will you expect from outside gang, there were be something like that. I dunno how the explain the whole show but just watch it, you will know I nv lie =)) hees. I love the character of wad LI GUO WANG was acting so AH gua but cute, I love the way he speak in malaysia qiang, so xiang la. haha.I dun mind watching again.hees. Nth much to update le.stop here le. will be more i think =))

2008-01-24T23:52:00.000-08:00

Nv been updating dunno for how long.N now i'm gonna update my blog once again =)

Life is still the same for me, but is getiing better, I'm no longer looking back and i'm happy wif wad I have now. Friends surrounding me makes me feel that I'm the most fortunate person, and I believe one day the special one will cum and fill my life completely.As long I have them around I have no more worries..

I believe wad I wanted to see the most will happened and I believe my life will be full of happiness compare to some other people. I'm a happy ger again=))

Can't remember wad i have done this days, but I remember the most was the sentosa trip =))

this are some of the picture we have took. Love them lots!!

2007-12-21T09:50:00.000-08:00

morning received 3 calls from prem and fahli. sorry boss!Hais. my sis and her bf was late for todae's opening so I'm always the one kana called and scolded of cos.arghs. but no choice. Luckily got prem's call if not i will sleep until i dunno the timing for work.lots of fcuking things happen today, all the in charge are going head wire, den my sis and her bf was being scolded by that bitch till very cham, and me! i got scolded by prem. Every small things that happened in the work I sure kana scolding de,like today i tok to him also kana scold. Now there's this fcuking nonsense small little notebook for our performance one, as long we make mistake they will write down and then they will deducted our pay. !!! sick and tired le la. this company is getting more and more sucky le. after work went to bathed den meet valerie and others. Lots of thing happened but doesn't involve me so i dun have the mention it out ya =)) haha. nth much le la. stop here le so tired today cos of some stupid reason. haha. nth much dude!!

2007-12-17T10:43:00.000-08:00

If u worth the respect i will respect u,
If u worth to be loved I will loved u,
If u are worth to be friend with,I will be urs,
If u worth to be given a chance I will give u.

BUT

Unfortunately,u dont worth the respect,
Unfortunately,u dont worth to be loved,
Unfortunately,u wont be my friend,
And lastly,u dont worth a CHANCE!

Some BITCHES loves to be so fake,
And some BASTURD loves to act innocent,
that's why they makes a perfect match=))

I couldn't believe that the person u trust and be nice to is the person
thats hurts u the most.
No point being good to everyone.
I have learn the lesson.
=)) thanks to THEM!

2007-12-12T08:07:00.000-08:00

was working this few days quite tired, alot of things had change, my work place changed alot there's lots of rule and regulation now den the stupid PS got so much to complain and now left only a few of us there. worse is she is firing pple again, sickening !! trouble after trouble, stress after stress. I really need someone to be there for me to shared my problems but now I have no one to turn to. I simply hope my he will appeared. No big hope on it ba. arghs. getting more and more sick of my life and everything. =((
Finally i realised you are no longer inside my heart =)) think that is the good new. bye to my past.
nth to updated. stop here le.

2007-11-30T01:35:00.000-08:00

went to do my hair today, now short again but straight =) hees. abit weird now cos i still not use to it but will get use to it soon de.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EILEEN DARLING =)) haha. finally 19 le ya. hoho. cannot say u ae 18 anymore =Xx bleahs.

2007-11-27T03:42:00.001-08:00

hmm..i'm bored. watching the korean movie now called" tian guo de shu", is so touching and sad, they love one another so deeply but cannot get together becos in the end that guy died. Is so unfair, why couple that are so loving as they are like cant live without one another that kind, the ending is always so bad. Like the news about the dragon boat guy, he died so young la and his gf is so dam sad, they are together for so long and so loving end up this is their ending. so so unfair!! PPle who knows what is treasure, their ending is always bad, for those who dunno how the treasure always tend to have good ending. dunno wad is happening to this fcuking world. hais.
totally agreed wif wad selina say guys dun reali know wad's the meaning called "love" they onli think that saying I love you means LOVE. having sweet talks is also called LOVE. but seriously their mindset towards love is all bullshit. And while they are after you they treated you like princess but after a period of time they treated you like a rubbish, say throw jiu throw, nv tot of how a ger feel. hais. wondering why god still treated them so well lah. arghs. dun care la. rite now having a guy or without them it makes no diff, as long I can live happily i'm happy le.
=)) cheers.

2007-11-25T04:51:00.000-08:00

My assignment finally came to an end, everything went smoothly for me, nth got cork up.But overall it is still a tiring days for me becos of not having enough sleep. Still, I feel so relax after all the hard work at least my effort is not waste. started working for derek on some of the concert stuff, and were having lots of fun wif kok onn,james and kenneth, working wif them is so funny, they always joke around and I wont feel bored at all la, not like working at the pony there, so boring. Although abit sick and tired of that pony job but wad to do, got to think further, work becos of the money not becos of i like it or not la. This few days after that conflict, things have been smoothly for me, nth much had happened again, hmmm...still not bad ba. wad i can say is past is past got to moved on ya.
So yesterdae was the last show for the hong kong dunno wad, so as per normal,me james and mei working in the front like wad we did for the rest of the concert. Was having our own sweet time after the show had started, we were all enjoying ourself by eatiing crackers. haha. and that stupid james actually went to steal customer koropok to eat la.omg!. tan chi gui.. =XXX
Den at night saw zelia, she came to tok to me so we had our conversation for quite long, not quarreling just normal chit chat. And we were like having fun conversation wif larry and all too, they even teased zelia la, so bad.hmm.. after all the show stuff, went supper wif zelia and james.
anyway can see that she is happy wif him den good loh at least he changed for her. For me, I dun really feel a thing maybe is becos the feeling i used to have is dead ba. When U love someone to a certain limit, the feeling will automatically be goned, not becos u dun love him is just that the pain have overtake everything and feeling turn numb.that's all i can say lo.=)) hees.

So piss off now...hais... no more holiday for me.....=((((arghs dun care lah ...work for now ba ...

2007-11-16T13:00:00.000-08:00

Was busying with my assignments this days,lots and lots of assignment for me to completed. arghs. stress. trying my best to complete what I have.Nth much for me to updated cos i couldn't remember what had happened during the past few day.sorry ya. Oh ya! went for my BBt test, under private now, not long later i will get my licence le.I'm gonna work hard for it, as i promised jeremy i all bring him around. so got to jia you. Was quite busy this time, so din really cared so much about those upset stuff.But still, i hear new things from frens, heard that he is with other ger this time again, I cant say anything nor i feel anything cos no pt, he dun even cared for u anymore why still bothered. I believed wad ming han say to me, I will do as wd u say de, and i'm doing it rite now =) . love u lots.thanks for being there for me. waiting for dec ya. our promised lei. hees. So now wad I will be doing , was to pass my foundation studies den my BTT, later is to earn money!! haha. holiday cuming le, I will work hard for it.strike for success.Now i just need money to reborn my hair, cutting short again. hmmm..all I cared is myself right now.hees.
Oh. went to watch the BEE movie wif jerome, so cute la the movie.haha.promised him to buy him his present for his bdae, so got to work more part time ya=pPp. He changed alot lo, being more and more skinny and shuai le,haha.he will be happy hearing this.was being bully by him la when we meet that time keep on pushing my head and stuff.arghs! smack his butt. but overall he is nice la, he treated me well too, thanks for acc me. hopefully this sat we would meet again ya.I miss the sec 1 him la, so cute but now getting more mature le, still not bad at least look like a man now rather than xiao didi ya.
Saw yong teck, wee kian and bi shen on monday if i'm not wrong, they all have changed, totally different from the past le. haha. I miss sec life!!! i miss alll my loves !!! haha... k lah stop here le I'm going to start more rubbish if i continue. off~ to work=))

I love u darling!! =)))

2007-10-25T12:42:00.000-07:00

went study wif gals today at the mac. was enjoying our stuff while studying lo. This is one of the pic i taken, emi is like so hardworking la. I love that night slacking wif u gers cos Is dam fun la. I love night life =)) hees.

This was taken on saturday.Where Downtown is celebrating helloween called " the walking undead"haha.is like dam scary la. den my boss was like scaring me loh. wear the bloody mask and den hind behind the curtain la. arghs!!! But i have lots of fun inside the D'maquee. hees. Met alot of "ghost" inside.haha. they are so friendly actually, was toking to them loh.hees.=))
Love helloween. First time feeling so. haha.I love my boss!!!! hahahaha....

2007-10-23T09:03:00.000-07:00

woke up in the morning at 7.20 am. was forcing myself to do so cos i'm seriously too tired le, cant even stand properly. Get myself wash up and packed everything to school. Was on time for my bus, so went to take pasir ris train first so that i can get myself a place to sit =)) was spending my time to play the tennis games in my fone is like so hard to win la !!! piss off . I dun believed he can win why i cannot..hahaha.. was listening to my mp3 at the same time. Is like wadever song i'm listening to is like so suitable to express my feeling la so qiao. Was playing the game all the way untill i reach bugis. nth much was doned today during lesson just learn about some photoshop stuff and rushing my printmaking projects. sso piss off. dun reallyhave the mood lo.
After that went 3D lesson to mark attendence and leave le ..haha..bad rite..cos sophia waiting for me outside.hees.
Was happily chatting outside the class wif josh,richard and joel lah.Richard so funny la, he was like walking backward and the reason he give was" If i dun get my food I will continued to walk this way" crazy lah him. But he is a real joker la =)) VS1T is going to be so very united ya !! Love love lah.
Went home after that. Was quiet for the whole journey untill dunno wad happen there's this old man la he put his leg onto the seat like qiao qi lai la,den hor he start to tok on the fone so loud even i listening to mp3 i also can hear la!! arghs...den he keep on scolding bad words..those ta** de and many more la. Just wish to put a plaster over his mouth .bleahs.
Den while I was walking I saw this couple quarreling at the small mac loh . they are so fierce to one another la that guy even can beat that ger loh!!!! HOW DARE HE DO THIS! I just feel like slapping that guy on his face la. WHy must GUY ALWAYS RULED OVER GERS huh!!! in future gers are the one that 's better okay!!!N who say president cannot be ger , the fact is there's okay. so women are the best =)). meet mummy that time i saw this 2 old indian couple they are so loving la no matter how old are they, they even will hold thier hand together walking around so sweet=)) How i wish I can be like them too.

Went tm wif mummy, den after that went dinner wif jia liang and meimei, was forced to eat the porridge in the end went home to ***** lah .hais. just cannot eat anything.
Oh ya ! stupid jia liang hai me fall down from the bic lah ...arghs...smack *

k lah before i stop here. Pple go see this link. is so true la.

http://youth.sg/forum/showthread.php?t=1108

I belong to Cedar tree=)) so true loh..

2007-10-19T00:43:00.000-07:00

I was awaked by a long dream that brought me into the world that is full of happiness, laugher and concern. But now everything ended, the imaginary world was goned, and later I found myself standing at the same old place again, after a long walk I'm still in the same circumferce.
Now i know from the start i was just dreaming there's no prince at all, no happy ever after de ending and NO Love. This are all my childish and stupid tot. Ger is time to wake up, now ur prince is gone and he is very happy wif his new princess, you are no longer living in his heart, his heart is replaced by another her. No point standing at the same spot, waiting for the prince to cum back. Now u are just a ger that are without flesh and blood, u are just nth anymore.
Prince is goned forever never will he cum back for u nor he will cared for u anymore, he have his new ger to take care of le. Liping shi ge da ben dan...zhen de zhen de wo yi jing bu zai kuai le le.
Liping is no longer that cheerful anymore.she is just a corpse now.

zai jian le.
151007

2007-10-05T08:14:00.000-07:00

monday: went SPTI to wacth some print making stuff=)) is so very wonderful. I getting to fall in love in print making and I'm actually thinking of going for it as my main subjects for my future career.And I saw my 2 subjects teacher drawing lo, is so nice and expensive too=) so li hai loh.

tuesday:doing nth just PROJECTS PROJECTS!!!

wednesday: meet him. =)

thursday: class gathering!! steamboat. and conflict wif him =((

friday: totally being ignored by him. I dunno wad I can do now!!

the rest of the days think it wouldn't be nice nor happy.
my rainbow is goned......

2007-09-26T05:55:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not being the best
though i've tried
sorry for not being perfect for you
though i did
sorry for not being someone
who you want and expect me to be
..sorry...
Im only ME.. =(
Today i love you
Tomorrow i still will
my love for you is strong
i will cherish every moment of it
even if my love for you fails

=))I love my dear

2007-09-19T14:47:00.000-07:00

SHEN LI PING
was dead on the 19th september.
No one can cure her? nth can =(((
She is being unwanted.
Nobody love her.
She left.
Her soul is no longer inside her.
The wind lead her to the heaven,
A more carefree and unharm world.
Take her away~
That's the place where she belong.

2007-09-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

Having a bad days yesterdae due to food poisoning.Thanks boy for being there for me till late night.I'm so touch for the things you have done for me.I love you boy=)

Just gt back from boy's house, feeling uncomfortable rite now.I was just wondering if I'm the one in the wrong or not? maybe this time both of us are not wrong. However I still feel very uncomfortable,I know I'm being very sensitive this days & I'm very easy to get jealous when u interact wif some other gers. But I dunno how the express the feeling inside me,there's this kinda fear in me that I couldn't let it out. I reali scared things would be like the past,I reali dun wish to see the same things happening to me ever again, I reali dun wan! I reali treasure the time I had wif you, the happiness we went through and everything, I dun wish to lost it.dun wan!How I wish I can keep you wif me forever when I know is impossible. The more i try to do that the more it will be worse.I'm not a good girlfriend that will satisfied my bf, I'm bad in everything and when everytime I'm trying to express the feeling that's inside me I always tend to make things worse due to misunderstanding. why? hais. Being wif him is not difficult for me just that i realli dunno how the express myself well enough and how could i interact wif him. I dun wish boy to mistaken as being wif you is a very xin ku things cos being wif you is the most happiest thing in my life. I'm just here to write dowm my messy feeling.
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2007-09-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

I using my dear laptop now,not feeling very good after seeing some stuff.Just dunno why I have this kinda feeling out of the sudden.forget it. Have been very stress thiS few days due to so much homework teachers give and project we have the do and got to hand in next week. arghs! I'm getting to be sick and tired of my everything, I even dislike to be myself. Pple out there is so so xin fu and happy with their life whereas i'm not. Can there be any fairness on earth? think it wont.never.Sometime dunno why my tears will just burst out ,like yesterdae I cried while calling dear,didn't tell him and continued our usual conversation. I just suddenly feel something pushing me very very hard that is causing me to be so stress up!something is reali not right for me, so not right!!stress stress stress.
totally blank now! so blank!

2007-09-10T21:50:00.000-07:00

I dun understand why some pple really can't give their blessing to loving couples.
Why must do things to make couple quarrel.
HATE IT!!
Can't they just stop all thier bullshit,just simply left the couple alone and let them be as loving as ever?CAN!!!
arghs..so angry.I really dunno wad is in ur mind, wad are you trying to do.Wadever it is pls stop it, cos I really do love my only bf and I dun wish to change it nor anything.
pls dun spoil the relationship between me and him.

piss off day! =((

2007-09-03T22:50:00.000-07:00

I just hope that our love would never end.

By having u in my life,

makes me feel that I'm no longer alone.

The feeling I have for u is so strong that i cannot
express it so easily.

'I luv u'

Our promise will never be Broken.

2007-08-30T11:39:00.000-07:00

Surrounding of mine is in a total silent,
nothing but the sound of my heart beating.
Was wondering where to go to release myself,
from the situation I'm facing.
Was wondering wadever I do was rite or wrong.
Was wondering when would everything stop bothering me.
Was wondering.... was wondering...
So many wonders,so many confusion,so many hardship,
making me so puzzled.
Do I deserved all this?DO I??
I really dont know.
Out of the sudden trouble just appeared in front of me,
without giving me a signals,
and I'm gonna faced it without preparing myself.
How I wish I can take over my own life,
everything or anything will be under my control.
No more hurts nor pain,no more problems to face.
NO MORE!!
I dislike the feeling I'm having now.
HATE IT!!
But I know it wil not be gone forever.
Can I leave this place?can I?
Can anyone tell me wad am I going to do!
I think no one could help it,
because this qns will always be unsolved.

=((

2007-07-29T09:54:00.000-07:00

My unlucky day today, everything is so bad ,my mood, my relationship and even my ez-link card got taken away by the bus driver.hais. Becos of this mood, I'm suffering the whole day and worse of all is my boi, he trying to make me happy but i'm always showing him att and giving him face.sorry dar.I reali not in the mood i dunno why.I dunno isit becos i'm sick or wad but i just dun have mood.Whole day being like that,end up having a big quarrek wif him =(..Too many things to explain dun feel like writing it down.But at last we still get back to one another.I just hope that we can be happy like that tie the day there's no quarrel at all. How i wish I wont be so sick that I dun even can get up of the bed, like that den I can never argued wif him again. bu guan zhen mo yang, wo dou hui zhuo dao wo shou da yin Dear de shi=)) wo men yi ding yao kuai kuai le le di zai yi qi. Love dear.

stop here le 2ml den updated again..nites

2007-07-26T02:48:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling so sick for the whole day,having slight fever and a heavy flu.hais.dun reali feel like eatting anything, just feel tat whole body very cold and weak. was all alone at home lah,nobody care if i'm sick or wad,& i'm not in the mood to even tok to anyone. sorry boi if i tok rudely to u. hais.This feeling sucks!!! I just hate this weather, I just hate to get sick,and I hate to be left alone =(((

Pictures!!!

2007-07-24T21:55:00.000-07:00

yesterdae boi cum my house to do his homework.After that we decided to go downtown to have our dinner together wif my sisters and her bf.So while waiting for my mei to be ready,we took a few photos as u see below lah=) Funny hor.Was like so crazy yesterdae loh,busy taking diff pictures,but all not nice onli a few that can be shown=p
Nth much was done actually only the foto stuff ba =) But for the last 3 pictures, it was being taken for quite a few days le but i forget to upload.The most funniest part was the buttock pic,boi dun wan me to upload it but i dun care =X haha.I insist that the pic is being presented to everybody.bleahs.bad hor.think Boi will be killing me later after seeing this.hees. The last picture that shows a huge sandwich, was actually made by yong quan=) He add alot of stuff to my sandwich lo(extra ham,bacon and cheese), not enough still can add de tat's wad he say.cute sia him.cos he working at subway that's why=). Thanks yong quan! Hees...Was very full that day can. hmmm..Oh ya! boi dun forget wad u promise me hor yesterdae nite !! FORGET de hua ni jiu shi ding le!!!!

Pictures taken.luvluv^__^*

Dear just dun like to take foto wif me =(( see his face so emo lah!!

Finally dear smile le =) was being force by mi..wahaha..li hai ba.=XxX

Third pics onli boy de face alr our of shape =))

oMG! i have a long hu zi.haha.MAN HOR.Let me intro u my new wife here =* opps!

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Tutu couple..boy looks funny.hees

Meet the couples* sweet.

He belongs to MEee!! signed*

Boy de pi ku almost the same as the horse loh.So FAT!! nice pose ya.

Dinner at subway,my sandwich so da can! 6-inch becum 8-inch.

STOP HERE LE!...update soon =)

Watch it!! Is so touching.

2007-07-23T11:40:00.000-07:00

Was watching this korean movie and I find it so touching and nice that i wanted to share around. The name of the show is called"hearty paws",a movie toking about 2 young children and thier faithful dog.I wont say much about it,just watch it urself and I am sure that u will end up like me crying through almost the whole entire show=(. Becos this is the most touching and saddest show i ever watch. It's so meaningful loh.
Here's the link for the show :
http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=36246
(part 1)

U can contiue from there, there are still other part of it =))ENJOY!!hope u all like it.

2007-07-22T23:00:00.000-07:00

Went to work as usual like I always do,n waiting for dear to cum my house and fetch me to work.after that went downtown to have our lunch, was quite piss off wif the KFC at downtown de, the service dam slow, hai me and dear gt to er du zi until we finish preparing all our stuff to start work.sORRY dear!I was being so rude to u when u ask me whether i wanna eat anot and can i still bear wif the hunger for awhile and stuff like that.hais.However, dear didn't get angry and he just went to da bao my zinger meal where the queue is like dam long lo..I feel so guilty can, dear treat me so good still treat him so bad.I'm just a bad galfriend=((.

He even watch me finish my food before he go buy his,in order not to let dear xin ku, I went the buy food for him this time.dear wo zhen de hen dui bu qi!

Nth happen,onli that in the afternoon dear brought me my favourite candy but is the favour that i dun like,so keep on blaming him why choose this..EE..bu hao chi de you know and .....dots..dots...In the end I still finish the whole candy.I find dear very sweet sometime,but just wanna disturb him wif words that sometime may dun like to hear de.sorry dear!I'm not trying to hurt u.

Until at night after we had eaten our dinner at subway, dunno why out of the sudden we quarrel until very xiong.Total silent til we reached my house den we make everything clear.Dear wad i promise i will do it de=)) and wad u promise me must also do it k =) Love u lots.

2007-07-21T22:35:00.000-07:00

My first time playing beach volleyball, although it nv turn out to be good however i still did learn something. hmm..nth much about the volleyball stuff cos is like quiet borning lo, for this yrs competition organize by new urban male.

After the games, went to bathe and headed straight to vivocity to do some shoping.Went the meet dear straight awa but is like so late le la around 3/4+ loh and dear is waiting for me to pei him eat dinner. Sorry dear, keep u waiting for so long, hai you cannot eat early den later got wei tong.hais. Told dear i will reach at 5.10 and luckily i reach there on time.hees.pei dear go eat zhu cha tang,and kway cha, dunno i spell correct anot =* Eat until go full can.Went downtown to find lao po also she sick but still cum replaced me to work.hais.xin ku lao po le.hais.Pei dear dear awhile den went home wif cab is like so expensive la the fare $7+ cos of the double charge.hai.wad to do I'm so very tired.Went home and was like dead le, lay on the bed and fall alseep so fast. Wake up at 10.30pm, and was waiting for dear to cum cos he wanna cum and pei me .hees.so nice of him.He reached at 11+, and he even brought subway cookies for me =P.bleahs.MUACK!!hees..dear pei me until 12+ den go home le.cos he got to take the last bus home if not going to be like that time, run home loh.hais.poor thing.anyway thanks dear for everything =)))k lah I'm so very tired.going to bed again.stop here le.Nites=*

2007-07-19T08:43:00.000-07:00

Having my blogskins change and everything now I'm gonna start updating le.
This few days was busy wif work and acc boy so not free to updated,now I'm gonna update wad I have been doing yesterday and today itself.

Yesterdae went out wif pris for the lasalle interview at the new school building. Pris suppose to reach there at 9.30 but we were like late for a few mins but is okay overall.Waited for pris to finish her interview for one hour+...so long can! arghs =X knew a new fren there too, she tok to us about wad had happen in the interview and stuff,and many others. But i agreed wif one of the sentence is : " yi ge hui hua hua de ren shi bu hui suo hua de " means an art person wont use words to express themsleve they will onli use draw to express it out. TOTALLY RIGht!!
Anyway lasalle new building is like hai hao la not reali very very nice, is onli that the whole building is like full of glasses and is like all black in colour =)). After that went the eat lunch wif pris at the food court, den went back to bugis again to shop,but too bad is like all the shop is close la.hais. Went to look for andreas de daddy, he so funny and nice lo.It was raining that day so we lent the umbrella from him,but he leave it in his van,so he went back to the van to take for us lo. so nice. Thanks uncle !!And the funniest part andreas daddy say to pris was:"why nv tell the teacher say u know me,if u tell them my name rite u sure get into the school wan."haha..so funny lo. Find that he look exactly like andreas lo,like foto copy de.
Is like nth we can do so we went home lo.
I forgot to bring my key so went to boy's house to stay first.His mummy and daddy is at hm la, so scary but after all his mama still not bad, she even cook my rice to eat.Thanks aunt=). Oh ya! Thanks boy for cooking my dinner ,enjoy having my dinner with u and alton. hees.after that
dear sent me home at 10pm..

Today din go out to shop at all just went out to have my lunch wif boy at the food court near my house here de, den cum home le.Boy stay at my house for the whole day den pei me watch the thailand ghost movie, abit scary la but overall the show is like so scuk, dun have ending want. So boy was like sian half lo. haha.waited for my meimei and her bf to cum back den go have our dinner together. After out dinner, me and boy went home to watch the 9pm show where mei acc her bf go home change his shoe to play volleyball later. Went volleyball at 9+, was playing so happily but poor boy he sit at the side and watch us play cos he dunno how the play, wanna teach him he also dun wan. Sorry boy=( .after the game, dear received a call frm his dad saying his uncle pass away, hais..so sorry dear.So 2ml me and boy cannot go shopping le.hais. this kinda things is hard to say de so wad can i do. Luckily meeting ivan they all to go shop and later on went to volleyball for training =)) thanks!! kk nth much to updated le stop here first ba..nites^_^